A Christmas spent away from home cannot be without an atmosphere of unfamiliarity. I'm not saying my Christmas was bad, but it was certainly dissimilar to any holidays I had in the States. When we, the few remaining Americans, weren't at the Christmas mass at the Gothic cathedral or singing carols or having long, rambling conversations over cookies and popcorn, I found myself scrambling for things to do, from playing music to doing laundry. I think I've been more productive in the past few days than I've been all December.
Mass was a you-had-to-be-there experience. The interior of the cathedral is in traditional Gothic style: high-roofed, poorly lit, slightly sinister, and without color. The stone, bronze, and expansive space above our heads magnified the power of the choir and orchestra quite well.
There was a significant increase in conversation and hanging out during the days leading up to Christmas; one night saw four of us cooking and talking for six hours. I think we all felt a little strange to be away from home and we gravitated towards social contact as a natural response. We were, of course, the ones awesome enough to stay in Europe.
More American students went home for Christmas than I expected, and I'm left wondering why they'd ever want to leave Germany. Was it part of their plans or a more spontaneous expression of homesickness? Should I have gone home? Should I be homesick?
NO, because that is lame according to my frame of reference. I understand homesickness as a sentiment present in other people, and that's where I prefer it to be - in somebody else, not me. And why would I want to go back early? Let's do a quick review: six weeks in Austria which included trips to Italy and Slovenia, one month in Egypt, three and a half weeks in Bulgaria, and an ongoing stay in one of Germany's most beautiful cities; and that's just where I've been. Does any of those options sound unappealing? Why would I want to go back ahead of schedule when I could fill in that time with some kind of adventure?
I miss my dog, but that's where I draw the line.
Read the second paragraph again; or, better yet, read all my blog entries since May if you haven't done so already. I'm not trying to show off or look cool by advertising my past experiences, I just want the reader to understand how remarkable this year has been. The sheer amount of fun that's been had, especially in Egypt, would be hard to believe had I not kept a record. Homesickness isn't something I'm naturally immune to; it's something I've had to preemptively eradicate with experiences both self-initiated and accidental. What I've accomplished in just over half of my total time overseas is mind-boggling, and that's why the idea of staying here for another seven months isn't the least bit intimidating.
Aaaand my brother is coming in a few days. Do I sense an upcoming video entry? I think I do.
Grüß,
-Jared Boze









